for the past 2 days i have encountered some unlucky events during this Ramadhan.. had to dance while fasting, stuck and stranded in komuter for 6 hours (imagine a trip from kl-seremban for 6 hours?? like hell!! i could WALK from kl-seremban less than that..) and the lastest is my late great grandmother, Allahyarham Hjh Siti Mariam had past away yesterday right after we had our sahur.. at first when i received the news, i was on my bed sleeping of tiredness from the ktm event.. then at 10am or something my mom woke me up and said the bad news.. at first i was a bit blur.. then i quickly raised my hand and recited al-fatihah.. after that my mom quickly headed to my kampung in senaling, k.pilah.. i continued on sleeping after that.. until i realised that i wasn't dreaming and i woke up.. i ran downstairs and asked my kak lang.. she confirmed the news but there was still no tears flowing down my cheek.. i was stunned and speechless.. after a while my kak ngah were home from pearl haya tudung's sale after she heard the news from my mom.. she cried.. that's when my tears flowed down.. after that she quickly asked me to prepare to go to kampung.. at 11am we went to kampung and arrived 40 minutes later.. we couldn't see our Anyang for the last time as people already covered her face in her kafan.. my kak ngah cried some more.. but i managed to perform solat jenayah for Anyang and watched her being buried.. i cried so much when the imam gave the tazkirah at her grave.. i cried when he mentioned my Anyang's name.. after that he recited the doa and we all left Anyang's grave.. i miss Anyang so much as i seldom visited her at kampung.. i pray for her soul to be in heaven InshaAllah and to be joined with golongan beriman.. amin