Happy Eid Ul- Fitr & Happy 54th Independence Day everyone! :)

i've seen so much lately on facebook - people's status. how they react when something happened in their life. argument - put on status. hatred - put on status. rejection - put on status and etc. all for one reason. attention. i've also tend to follow what people usually do on facebook. grabbing other's attention.  i want to be noticed. just because i feel that yes everyone is doing it. and it is kind of normal to do. it seems annoying but everyone is approving it. so why not? but, i also think that it is not appropriate. hurm what the heck, it is my facebook and i write what i want. if you got any problem with it then f**k off! lol. seriously this not what i want. yes, i want to be noticed but sometimes to me being hypocrite is important in order to avoid ourself from doing something stupid. i.e. putting our half naked picture just to show our body. one day when we finally realize that it is wrong, we will totally regret it. maybe hyprocrite is not the right word. hurm honest to ourself? i don't know.  i'm confused right now. hurm..

for the past 2 days i have encountered some unlucky events during this Ramadhan.. had to dance while fasting, stuck and stranded in komuter for 6 hours (imagine a trip from kl-seremban for 6 hours?? like hell!! i could WALK from kl-seremban less than that..) and the lastest is my late great grandmother, Allahyarham Hjh Siti Mariam had past away yesterday right after we had our sahur.. at first when i received the news, i was on my bed sleeping of tiredness from the ktm event.. then at 10am or something my mom woke me up and said the bad news.. at first i was a bit blur.. then i quickly raised my hand and recited al-fatihah.. after that my mom quickly headed to my kampung in senaling, k.pilah.. i continued on sleeping after that.. until i realised that i wasn't dreaming and i woke up.. i ran downstairs and asked my kak lang.. she confirmed the news but there was still no tears flowing down my cheek.. i was stunned and speechless.. after a while my kak ngah were home from pearl haya tudung's sale after she heard the news from my mom.. she cried.. that's when my tears flowed down.. after that she quickly asked me to prepare to go to kampung.. at 11am we went to kampung and arrived 40 minutes later.. we couldn't see our Anyang for the last time as people already covered her face in her kafan.. my kak ngah cried some more.. but i managed to perform solat jenayah for Anyang and watched her being buried.. i cried so much when the imam gave the tazkirah at her grave.. i cried when he mentioned my Anyang's name.. after that he recited the doa and we all left Anyang's grave.. i miss Anyang so much as i seldom visited her at kampung.. i pray for her soul to be in heaven InshaAllah and to be joined with golongan beriman.. amin

i'm back!! after a year and *plus*plus* of hiatus.. lol.. i really wanted to stop blogging because i can't write when i have a lot of things to think about.. but today i feel like writing.. hehe

there were so many memories of the past year, 2010.. mostly sad memories and a lot of things had happened.. so many to list out but why wasting time digging back the past when the present is what important right?? so.. today we are going to discuss about new year resolution.. some say, do we really need to wait for a "new" year to change ourself? and others just like the ideas of listing down their resolutions and hope that they will accomplished them.. hurm for me i like the idea of "don't wait  for a new year to change ourselves" because we don't live just for the new year right? everyday is important for us not just the new year.. but what's positive about making a resolution is that we are focusing on what we are going to do and accomplish.. so what say you??

0322 hours ^^

waa..so long..since the last post..hehe..seriously i skipped on writing about the ramadhan, hari raya, and also d day when i started to b unemployed..lol (i'm so lazy.. n erm.. honestly i wanna wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!-even its toooo late!! hehehe)

huhu..ok i have so many things to tell (write) but i dunno y i feel so lazy to make words and type them...agaga...

firstly..hari raya haji will be held on 27th of November (yes..this month!!)

secondly..a condolence to my fren, Syukri (if u read this) who lost his mom last month...Al-Fatihah

thirdly..who wants me to b your boyfren?? (i'm so lonely being single...hehe)

fourthly..i'm a freelance graphic designer now (really?? huhu)

fifthly..insyaAllah next year i will continue on my study (degree)..hehe

sixthly..please pray that i PASS my jpj test!! (amin...)

seventhly..2PM already made their comeback and of course without the leader Jaebeom Park..lol so sad...they perform "Heartbeat" from their latest album 01:59PM...2PM hwaiting!!! :)

eightly..erm..i lost it.. ok that's all for today...if i remember i will mention them on the next post...bye2..:)

(12.35 a.m.)

I dunno y im becoming more and more lazy lately?! I hate it...of being lazy of course...and i dunno how to control it...not like i dont try to not-being-lazy...huhu maybe i juzt tired of working...i dont find d passion while doing it...and d reason is dat my heart juzt not into it yet thinking dat i have to continue on taking d degree... if i continue on working and forget d degree i will be like soo enjoying d money from my salary n totally will forget or maybe dont wanna continue on study...hurm...its hard to make a decision and dat is why im being lazy...i guess...i hope i dont continue on being lazy like this simply becoz im d one will face d problems in d future...hurm...

(timeless)